April Mop
Uhm, it is good to start to write more
about what I really feel. You know, people nowadays would be so harshly being
nice in front hehe..
That is not good to tell anything to them,
include a joke haha, in front they may laugh out loud with us, but then it
would so cruel behind. Well, I have some people whom I always related that
year, cause I feel like uhm, no one besides me, so yeah it was suddenly like
that. Day and day there are more people who came by and got around us. It was
getting uncomfortable with. But, I did feel so comfort with two of them, I thought they were different, so yeah.
It was going well, until something
happened, it was so childish I think, the way they leave me and abandoned me
haha, I know I am not kind-hearted girl. But yeah still it was just something
happened that they never asking to me.
Anything getting worse, so yeah I feel
like I was a stranger for them, no one talked to me, include both of people
that I though they were different, so yeah, I feel like nobody’s around me once
more. I admit it, getting around with them make me feel like being alone,
that I tough it is the best way to be after classes, is not good, it is better
to get along with friends all night.
But yeah, that is the problem, I start to
hate to meet them all, it is worse I swear, I know it is even our last year
but, they just did something like I will never can forget, great!!
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So yeah I start to think about this and
that, and someday I decide to ask one of them to make sure what I did wrong.
Well, that is so funny instead to know the
truth why they start to abandoned me, make me feel like stranger and so. I know
it is my fault. Yeah as simple as it is.
Forgiven.
I don’t know what I would do if I were one
of them. Maybe I would do the same. Taking a distance as our agreement,
talk less and more. I can say something like that cause I am the one who always
be the beast. So yeah, I really really am so sorry for what I did in the past
and really wishing they understand it.
I just explained to one of them, I told
him anything, the truth, what really happened, so I think if I ask for a
mercy there would make anything worse, I know asking for a sorry is the best
way, a good thing. But, not now.
I will try to understand them more, I will
try to relate to them as I did simply before, I don’t know how it will go. But,
I will try, it is really not me haha..
But that is friendship.
Here I will tell you that making friends
would as easy as you trying a new flavor of candy that you ever eaten before.
Once you chew it, and it tastes good, you will like it, but sometimes that
candy would taste as well as the old one or worse. Hoping your candy always
tastes as good as you always expected.
Knowing how having friends sounds so
complicated but, we have to. Never deciding to live your huge life all alone.
You will never ever can enjoy it by your self. You need at least a person to
share about. Once you meet him or her, you will surprisingly happy and smile
everyday, wondering how could a single laugh is really hard to forget when you
will go to bed.
You will wondering how could a pain can be
something worth to keep inside and learning how endure and recover it by
yourself but, there’s always such a pain and you will think it is just
ok as long as he or she is always beside. People choose someone who they
think deserve to listen more about their stories and favorite songs and so do
I. I remember how I always been waiting for a dandelion, it feels like I was
chasing the wind blows. Until I don’t really know what made him turn around and
glanced at me.
But, trust me it tasted just sweeter than
my favorite candies. My mouth sometimes was bitten and bleeding, but I thought
that was how we should chew a candy. But in the end this candy tasted too
bitter. With my all regrets I throw it out.
The rest just tasted so sour. I was not
regretting what I did. I just was thinking about how to tasted something sweeter
again.
A bit I have been waiting and feeling
about something once I found this cup of coffee, I know I don’t have to chew a
candy to taste something sweet. The cup just hypnotized me. Perfect. I know it
is so confusing to enjoy a cup of hot coffee. Uhm, you have to drink it
when it is hot, to get the best taste of it, but you will feel it was too rush
and fast. In the rest you will sit with an empty beautiful cup while the rain
is still falling. The second choice is to drink it bit by bit until it is not
too hot to come in to your mouth but, if you want to have your coffee until the
rain is stop, it will turn cold and you cannot get the best taste of it. It is
like falling in love.
I was fall in love with my best friend. I
know it is funny, I lost my friendship, but in other hand I am in love with one
of my friends. He is just so warm, just like that coffee I wanted to drink over
and over. It is not a hot coffee, just a warm one.
He is just so gentle as baby breath I
think, all I have been needed.
So soft.
So soft just like a pie.
So, what am I supposed to describe him?
This cutie pie just so warm and sweet and smooth~
I think it is better to have than a bunch
of candies.
Well, I know it is so confusing too read
this. But, I only can write what I really feel.
So, yeah, thank you so much for visiting.
Hoping you have a great day.
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